Yes well that title doesnt fit all that much. i had conversations in my room today, but they werent plastic and meaningless - quite the contrary. and i did cry today, but not fake tears that i've had to save up for later. Tim leaves tomorrow night. Im such a reck. I like got sick a few times at church it was horrible. I want to be strong for Tim. But its so hard not to break down and bawl my eyes out whenever i think about it. we had a party for Tim in sunday school, that was nice. i dressed in red white and blue and everything. then Rebeccah the whore was all up trying to get my man, i was about to stomp her ass. She looking like a penny ho. she had on bright pink fish nets, stilletos, a tiny blue jean skirt, a tight pink shirt, and blue jean jacket that was a differnt color blue than the skirt and a puffy blue jean hat that was also another random shade of blue. and she was all like " come with me tim" and he was like " why" and she was all like "walk with me" and he was like " no" and she was like " do you still date heather?" and he was like " yep" and she was like "..oh.." HAHAHAHAH YAY GO TIM that made me happy, had he actually went i think i might have had a nervous breakdown in church. then we went to arbys with his mom and David hunter. and then we went and " saw " sky captain and the world of tomorrow. Of course i saw like none of it. I literaly saw like 5 min all together. it was good. yep yep. then we came back to my house and hung out and listened to depressing music and cried. Im gonna miss him so much. and i showed him my new prom dress, he really liked it. then we went to youth group where we had another party. it was lots of ...fun..... yeh thats where i kept getting sick. it sucked, gosh it sucks. this little girl Rachel like copied my every move for the longest time it was hilarious.
well tomorrow is the dinner with Tim and his numerous relatives. yep yep. then after that its goodbye until January. Im so proud of him though. He's gonna do so well i just know it. and when he gets back he'll be stronger in every sense of the word....i love him so much.....hmm........im gonna go cry now.....
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