Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Aug.8th - I've been housin all this doubt and insecurities....I'm begging you to be my escape
Well things have changed alot since last time, me and tim broke up again hahahha, um i dated Travis Jones for a few days and now i date..... DUN DUN DAA DUN Jen Bower, haha i know what you're thinking..."wait i've been reading this blog for a while now and never have you mentioned liking girls " but yes i do, and heres the weird thing guys, i think i love her. ok i love her i dont know why everything about her is amazing and i cant stop thinking about her and she makes me feel differnt than anyone else. but i dont know if she does or ever will feel that way for me cuz well i just dont know.
Now i quote Buffy tvs epispode : the replacement
XANDER: Still, I do envy you sometimes. (Riley looks up at him) I mean for the sanity. Not that I'm still into Buffy. (quickly) Not that I ever was.
RILEY: (grinning) Hey, I'm well aware of how lucky I am. Like, lottery lucky. Buffy's like nobody else in the world. When I'm with her it's like ... it's like I'm split in two. Half of me is just ... on fire, going crazy if I'm not touching her. The other half ... is so still and peaceful ... just perfectly content. Just knows: this is the one. (Smiles a little, continues packing for a moment, then looks up at Xander again.) But she doesn't love me.
The Queen of Wonderland died at
1:22 AM
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THE QUEEN HAS SPOKEN
I AM THE QUEEN AND WHAT I SAY GOES! OBEY ME!! OBEY THE FIST!!! OBEY THE CUTE LITTLE FIST!!!!!
What's with my procrastination? and all this social isolation? It's happening again, this darkness is seeping in. Loneliness consumes me still, It's holding me against my will. I can't break free, it is no use. Can't stop Unintended self abuse. Abolish me, break my heart, tear my soul. Abolish me in this beautiful nowhere, just wanna die in your arms tonight. Make my dreams come true, so i have a reason to wake.
Favorite Band: The Birthday Massacre
Favorite Quote:I'm trying to eat, could you please stop pooping - Devi
Best Friends: I'm now accepting applications
Sex: was very good
Pets:Auryn my snake, Oz the cat, and Freckles aka Mr. Eff the cocker Spaniel
Located: Wonderland
Mood: forever in a state of Insanity
Loves: Chibi, Alice in wonderland,Jhonen Vasquez (he is God) and everything hes ever done, edward scissorhands, HP, LOTR, The Birthday Massacre, reading, drawing, writing,and talking on the phone, and killing people who make me sad with large rusty hooks....oh wait i probably shouldnt have said that one....
Hates: people who ditch their best friend of three years for no reason. stupid whores, and stupid guys who cheat on their caring loving girl friends, and stupid guys who cheat on their caring loving girlfriends with stupid whores in portapotties, cows....moo..., people who think their too good to hang out with people at school who they hang out with out of school, posers, lies, people, dogs ( oh wait mostly the same thing), and people who use others lying to get their way.
About the Piggy's and the Squirrels: Squirrels stole my acorns and chase me down the road. I misses my piggy....WHY MY PIGGY I LUVEDED YOU PIGGY I LUVEDED YOUU!!!!
About the Cupcake:What is better than a mini cake? really? im serious??? ANSWER ME!!!
About the Tuna: Tuna goooodddd......it comes in a can....mmmm....tuna..
THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE